One of my favorite song is "I'll just say yes" by Brian Courtney Wilson.
The lyrics bring so much meaning to my Christian walk and life in general.
Here are a few lines..
I'll just say yes You lead the way I'm not afraid of what it means for me to say That this life You gave Is not my own I'm trusting You to hear my yes and lead me on Yes Lord Yes Lord My life is Yours I'll just say yes You lead the way I'm not afraid of what it means for me to say This life You gave Is not my own I'm trusting You to hear my yes and lead me on...
Yet submitting to God with all that I have and all that I am is so hard. Saying yes is hard. Yielding all my future and also present plans is hard. Letting Him take the wheel is hard and has been hard. Yet He says He has the best of plans for us all we have to do is say yes every day, every single hour and minute.
The moment I learnt I was going to be a mother of three... I had this struggle, in my head and heart I couldn't understand why God chose me to partake such a difficult experience. It was never in my plans, in-fact I had it all figured out that what I thought... Done with giving birth, focus on raising the lituman and litulady and give attention to my career and be a great wife, then Boom!! There is a bun in the oven, and I have to pause- first and gather myself up from the shock. I have a Toddler and a 5 year old and another on the way, and a husband and myself and on top of it my career, social life plus family to balance. In my head I knew I would not make it, I definitely will not pull through... so I fought it out with God. I had no tears to cry but day in day out I fought it out with God. He sent a great woman and the first thing she did was call me "Mother of Nations"and hugged me, and for the first time I cried my heart out. She assured me it will all work out He has it all figured out and rolled out. I received my peace.No more fighting it out.
Am here working with God's plan and timing. Its working out great, I have had such a flawless easy pregnancy and the litulady has grown up so fast way past her age and the lituman is perfect little man in the house. Only God has made it possible for us... cause here we are patiently waiting for our litu munchkin to join our home. Patiently waiting for our third nation.Say yes, especially when things do not go your way. Say yes to God's will. Say yes to all the plans that He has put in place for you. Say yes, say yes mostly when you can't see the end and you have no idea where its all going. Say yes!!
With love,
Muthoni
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