Let Love

Life on my side has been lovely. I say lovely because the emotions i have been feeling can only be summed up to seem lovely- some days am so happy and so in love others am drained and exhausted, others am moody and teary but most of them am happy with what i have going. The lituman has been doing great, of all the people around me am most proud of how he adapted fast from being the only one to big brother. He has made this phase so much easier for me- for us. He is loving- so loving to his baby sister and so understanding to me. The beau has also had his share of changes, interrupted nights mostly- he gets the night shift.. a girl has got to sleep you know.
In this season I have experienced a range of emotions including grieving. I can not help but miss my mother... this week especially. I keep wondering about all the things we would have done so far... how excited she would have been to be grandma for a 2nd time and the love she would have shown me. Its crazy that one moment am very okay and the next my heart is breaking not only for me but for our litu lady too. Am sad she won't get to be smothered with crazy love from my mum... am sad she won't know the woman who raised me... am sad for so many significant reasons and the insignificant reasons too.
I get to meet so many women and i have so many women around me. With each i find pieces of my mother's traits... traits that comfort me. I have come to learn its God's way of giving me comfort and ensuring am not alone. They all might not be my mother but in so many amazing ways give me the comfort that I need from a mother.
I am learning to let love... to let each of the mums God has given me love me and my family in their own ways. To bring in all the comfort i need.
For those grieving their mums, today let love in your hearts. Be reminded that a mother is love and they are never forgotten. Look around and all the love you need is right in front of you. You don't have or need to be alone.
Happy Mothers Day!!

Love,
Muthoni Muange