I have been walking on this land for 25 good years now (okay lets not count the ones my parents carried me, they will end up being like 20), but its been a great ride for sure. The moment I was told that my mum had passed on- the exact words were that "it got complicated and she didn't make" , my heart broke into pieces but i never lost hope, never at any given did i lose it, it was the only thing that kept me moving from going crazy or giving up. In that moment I knew I had to grow up, and do it really fast. I looked back and realized each word my beloved mother had uttered to me was to prepare me for a time when she won't be there, and the time had come and she definitely went assured that we would be okay that i would honor her. It has in no way been easy, but I am getting there. I keep wondering how did she make it, you know, being a wife-handling a man-, children who drive you crazy-need you so much, a daughter, a sister, a sister-in-law, a daughter-in-law, an employee, a church leader, a friend...how did she do it?
So yesterday i was feeling off, like, "hey i just turned 25, but i have nothing to show about it",and I asked God a few so many questions, and what He had to say was a lot.
I had my plans but He alone has the final say, and His are the best for me. I might have nothing to show, but i have a lot of blessings to show about being 25. I gave my mum the chance to become a grandma, which was probably the best gift i ever gave her. I had the opportunity to spend quality time and get nurtured into a wife and a mother, by my beloved mum. After her passing on, i got to bond with my dad. I was able to take care of a whole house which was not mine- but I did it. I had the chance to have a great relationship with my siblings, the pain brought us together- I hope we get to have this love for life. I got to have more mothers who love me in ways i can not describe- they have shown me the true meaning of friendship- that goes beyond death.
A very happy 25th birthday to me.
Love
Muthoni Muange
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